well its been awhile since i last posted so yeah not much is going on i am just waiting for adam to come home so we can hang out adn call eachother more names..hahah he mother dosent like it but yeah we think its funnie..so i am gonna be at my dads this weekend so yeah..i have to run now..but yeah..

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ok so lets see how my day is going...umm shitty!!! ok so my mum is on this im against heather thing again and guess what i have done..oh wait nothing..yeah so the school calls yesterday saying i cut and mum gets all pissed and i told her that i didnt..and i didnt care if she believed me or not.. so today the school calls her and tells her that it was a mistake and i was in class.victory for me wel not!!! ok so she is in a bitchy mood and i dont know why..maby cause i dont want to be around everyone..im so damn tired of ashlei being the golden child..i mean i can do good and not be recognized for it after doing bad for so long i turn around and do the right things but they are like oh its a faze youll go back to being bad again..instead ashlei is doing 100 times worse than me..like cutting class 3 weeks in a row and umm drugs maybe and umm boys too!!! so yeah thats all shit!! so i am really pissed right now adn adam hasnt called me yet and i yelled at my mum again and im not really happie about it and all this makes me miss justin even more cause all he can do is talk to me online and i am just kind of sad about that..and now my mum is trying to manipulate my dad into getting me to stay home more which is shit cause i need time away and EHH im going nuts here...um i havent been to church in a while and i mean i feel bad about it and all but i also dont want to go cause yeah...all my friends graduate tomorrow and i know its sad and all but im not to worried the only one really going away is jericho and really jake will be at our school so its not that big a deal..let him find his bikini wearing sc girls..so yeah things will be different but i am ready to get out of school...i wish i was graduating so i dont have to deal with all this crap and stuff..i guess you can say that i am vernting sorri u dont have to read it if you dont want to..so yeah most of this bad feelings come from the fact that i am home everyday all day and it bothers me and adam is gone so i cant do much..i just am really really pissed..and my mum says im an inconsiderate bitch when it comes to every ones feelings..OMG!!! i can be mean at times yes but im never like really really mean. and so its not like i have done anything terrible..grrr im damn fustrated..i am suposed to get a job cause thats what my mother said..but really one i dont want a job and 2 she wants me to work all the time..lets not im not saying that i dont want money and i dont wantto learn how to work.. it just i do not want to give up what freedom i have right now to go and feed poeple fast food..cause i will NEVER do fast food..im sorrie but i dont want to..and ugh i mean i have new found freedom when im with my dad ont eh weekends im not going to stop that becasue i have been kept in this tiny box for my LIFE...and now i wont get back in and do what she wants..i cant even pick a job that i want it has to be what she wants so im being a stubborn kid as always and saying hell no...jack in the box is not my style..and itws summer neither of my sisters have jobs and yes they are younger but really megan is 15 1/2 she can get a job but no she dosent have to..IM PISSED on the verge of tears yet again and there is no one to talk to....